The Most Intricate Details

YOU NEVER KNOW

2007-02-09T08:50:00.000-08:00

SINITIA MESA- MAY GOD REST HER SOUL
CHAVIS HARRIS-MISS YOU SO MUCH, WISH WE COULD HAVE SPENT MORE TIME TOGETHER, BUT NO MATTER THE DISTANCE, WE BOTH HAD AN UNDENIABLE CONNECTION
NICOLE "NIKKI" EDMONDS-I KNOW YOU ARE IN HEAVEN!
MARJORIE ORME-YOU LIVED A FULL LIFE, AND YOU ARE FINALLY AT REST
EDWARD CURTIS, JR.- I STILL CANT BELEIVE YOU ARE GONE, WHEN I RIDE BY THE PLACE, WHERE YOU TOOK YOUR LAST BREATH, MY HEART HURTS.

LIVE EACH DAY AS IF IT WERE YOUR LAST, EMBRACE EVERY DAY, AND LIVE IT AS GOD INTENDED.

ITS A NEW THING

2007-01-10T09:39:00.000-08:00

ITS A NEW YEAR!
I DIDNT MAKE RESOLUTIONS THIS YEAR, IM JUST GOING TO GET SOME THINGS DONE! STOP TALKING AND MAKE IT HAPPEN, SOMETIMES THATS HARD WHEN THINGS AND OR PEOPLE GET IN THE WAY. 2006 FOR ME WAS YEAR OF DISCOVERY, I DISCOVERED MYSELF AMONGST OTHER INTERESTING THINGS AND PEOPLE.
MY PERSPECTIVE WAS WIDENED, AND MY THOUGHTS BECAME DEEPER AND SO DID MY HEART, I TAPPED INTO FEELINGS AND THINGS, I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD, AND IT FEELS GOOD TO KNOW THAT IT IS INSTILLED IN ME, IT WAS JUST LYING DORMANT. THIS YEAR, IM MAKING THINGS HAPPEN. NOW THAT I KNOW, I HAVE THIS UNDENIABLE STRENGTH, AND AN UNBREAKABLE SOUL, IM GOING TO FIND AN OUTLET TO USE IT, A PLATFORM TO SHOWCASE IT, AND HELP OTHERS, AND MYSELF.

LACK OF COMMUNICATION

2006-05-22T09:56:00.000-07:00

COMMUNICATION IN ANY RELATIONSHIP IS IMPORTANT, WHETHER IT IS FAMILY, SIGNIFICANT OTHER, FRIEND, ETC. WHOMEVER.
WITHOUT IT RELATIONSHIPS FAIL, WHEN PEOPLE COMMUNICATE WITH ONE ANOTHER THEY BREAK DOWN WALLS, IT HELPS PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER BETTER.
PARENTS SHOULD NEVER FAIL TO COMMUNICATE WITH THEIR KIDS, WOMEN & MEN WITH THEIR SPOUSES, BEST FRIENDS WITH EACH OTHER.
COMMUNICATION HELPS BUILD TRUST AND WE ALL KNOW THAT THIS IS THE FOUNDATION, WITHOUT IT THERE IS NOTHING, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
THIS IS JUST MY RANDOM THOUGHT, NOTHING SPECIAL.

REMEMBER TO COMMUNICATE WITH ONE ANOTHER AND RESPECT PEOPLE'S DIFFERENT VIEWS AND PERSPECTIVES, STAND BY YOUR OWN OPINIONS BUT DONT SHUT OTHER PEOPLE'S OUT.

MY TRUEST PASSION

2006-03-17T18:21:00.000-08:00

YOU FEEL IT WHEN YOU ARE NEAR ME
I CALL IT MY PASSION
ITS WHY YOU CANT TAKE YOUR EYES OFF ME
ITS WHY YOU THINK ITS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT ME
MY PASSION IS LIKE BLOOD RUNNING THROUGH MY VEINS, IT WARMS ME, AND WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE IT INFILTRATES ME
IF YOU LOOK WITH YOUR SOUL
YOU CAN SEE MY PASSION
BECAUSE IT LIVES THROUGH ME
THIS IS WHAT YOU FEEL WHEN WE TOUCH
IT MAKES YOU FEEL BEYOND ME
YOU FEEL MY HEART AND YOUR RHYTHM MATCHES MINE
WHAT YOU FEEL IS MY TRUEST PASSION

MY SOUL

2006-03-17T18:09:00.000-08:00

IM A GIRL WITH A SOUL, A GIRL WITH A HEART.
IVE EXPERIENCED PAIN, IVE SEEN DEATH, IVE LOOKED INTO THE EYES OF EVIL,
IM A GIRL WITH A SOUL, A GIRL WITH A HEART
I WAS BATTERED, MY SOUL BORE THE SCAR OF A WOMAN SCORNED, MY HEART ENDURED CONSISTENT RIDICULE & GRIEF.
IVE BEEN BETRAYED, BEEN BEAT DOWN UNTIL I WAS LOOKING AT THE FEET OF MY ABUSER.
MY PRIDE WAS CRUSHED, MY INTEGRITY THREATNED.
MY EYES NO LONGER COULD SEE, I WAS BLIND TO THE WORLD, BLIND TO MY WORTH, BLIND TO WHAT I DESERVED.
I COULDNT STAY DOWN FOREVER, I HAD TO RECLAIM MY SOUL, I HAD TO REBUILD MY HEART, THE TEARS HAD TO STOP FALLING, THEY CREATED A PUDDLE BENEATH ME AND I WAS BEGINNING TO SINK.
I SAW MY REFLECTION, I DIDNT KNOW THIS GIRL, I DIDNT RECOGNIZE HER VOICE, SHE DIDNT HAVE THE GLOW I WAS USED TO, HER EYES DIDNT GLISTEN, SHE WAS WEAK, THIS WASNT ME.
THIS WAS NOT MY DESTINY, I COULDNT BE IN THIS FRUITLESS PLACE.
I BEGAN TO SEE MYSELF, I HAD TO BE AWAKENED.
I HAD TO DEMAND MY BIRTHRIGHT, I NEEDED TO FREE MYSELF OF THIS BONDAGE, IVE BEEN HERE TOO LONG.
IM NOW A POWERFUL WOMAN WITH A NEW SOUL & A POWERFUL SOURCE OF STRENGTH, NEVER SHAKEN & NEVER INTIMIDATED.

BONDAGE

2006-03-17T04:29:00.000-08:00

my heart screamed your name i used to pray that you could hear it, my soul cried out to you. i used to crave your touch, i was standing right beside you but you walked right through me. i was a ghost. my feelings were nothing to you, your heart couldnt see me, you shut me out. i gave you nothing but me, all of me, maybe too much of me because I was standing there and everything was non existent. you crushed my spirit, balled it up in your fist and shattered my soul with it. devotion and loyalty could no longer dwell in our house, it was replaced with deception and bitterness. you declared your love for me and out of the same mouth cursed the very ground that I walked on. You used to make me hollow, void of emotion until the depths of my being erupted of pain like lava and poured onto your feet, but you kept walking dragging pieces of my dead passion with you. my tears would not penetrate you you were cold to my thoughts it was a game to you. you manipulated me and drove me to the fiery pits of despair, made me think i could not live without you, that i would be deserted if i left. you played a game with my mind, i was your puppet. sorry i had to cut the strings, you suffocated my soul, i can finally breathe on my own. you are not my oxygen, i thrive off my passion, not your hate i thrive off my heart, not off your false seductions. i thrive off of me because I was always enough.

REDEMPTION

2006-03-17T04:22:00.000-08:00

This mother, this junkie How can you call yourself a woman? You used to be so full of life, You used to put even the most Beautiful women to shame. Your children, that you bore, That you carried under your heart, Suffer They suffer so you can get a hit. They go home to darkness, while You run the decrepit streets With hopelessness and despair as your friends. Track marks mutilate your body and disfigure your face. You sway uncontrollably back & forth on the Street corner. This poison has a stronghold over your mind, Your children don’t recognize you, They are ashamed to go to school, They are ashamed to call you their mother. You have forgotten what our ancestors sacrificed So that you wouldn’t have to live this. You are a black woman, strong and fiery But yet you choose to become a statistic, You choose to let your children raise themselves. They fend for themselves, you would even sell yourself For a substance that slowly invades your body, and becomes part of you. You are in slavery once again. Get up woman, take your place in society, Raise your daughter to become a woman, a woman of virtue, Raise your son to with dignity & respect Break this vicious cycle, get up out of the gutter and claim your throne. Don’t you realize who you are? Don’t you realize the power that you posses? You could have America bowing at your very presence, Even the mention of your name would earn you respect. Get up from this pitiful & destitute state of mind & realize the power that you posses. Reach high & grasp your freedom, & never let go again.